Thursday, September 22, 2011
I don't want to be a 'have mercy' servant.
I just want to get to that place where I love God and follow God and worship God BECAUSE I'm in love with Him. I want to be able to truly believe that I would WANT to be God's servant even if this entire world was doomed for destruction with the believers included in that destruction. Would I serve Him if there was nothing in it for me? God asked me this today. And it broke me when I had to answer. Completely broke my heart. I hate myself for that. But I don't know how to think differently. God is the only one who can change my heart. And I pray He does. I don't want to be a 'have mercy' servant. I want to be a 'send me to Hell if it brings you glory' servant. I want to love God like He loves me. But I know I can't. God is everything good inside of me. I pray He helps me love Him better. And more. And stronger.
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I LOVE your blog! I was wondering if it would be cool with you if I stuck part of this post on my blog, I just think it's really awesome... and gave you the credit, of course. I think I will, and then if you aren't comfortable with it... I'll take it off! Haha, no, but seriously, I love your blog!
Thank you very much! That means a lot to me. You have my permission. What is your blog?
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